Well, I did it. I completed a year of daily posts. I set the challenge for myself and despite the crazy constraints of motherhood, I did it. To say that I accomplished anything meaningful outside of potty-training and getting my kids to eat broccoli feels pretty amazing. It is proof that I do still have some brain cells intact and that on occasion, I can rally them together and write something entertaining, heartfelt or just plain silly. I have had a very good time.
I think the biggest change for me has been coming to terms with motherhood. I think sometimes when we are unhappy with who we are, we blame our choices and our circumstances. I will admit, especially in the newborn years, I struggled with my all-consuming role as a mother. I thought that maybe if I had made some different choices, like continuing to work or if I was somehow parenting better, I would feel happier. Turns out, it wasn’t my boys or motherhood, it was me. It doesn’t matter what I accomplish outside of motherhood that determines my value, it is ultimately up to me to determine that. Whether I become a world-famous author or if all I manage is to raise two, well-adjusted boys, my value remains constant. I get that now.
Finally.
So, Full Speed and T.Puzzle, keep bringing it. Keep my days filled with unexpected twists, turns and the random loving, moments. I look forward to the challenge.
Thank you for all the friends I have made along the way. I am excited and hopeful for the coming year and have a feeling, Full Speed and T.Puzzle will not disappoint.
Have a great day and celebrate my blog-a-versary! Cheers!
I knew you could do it. Congradulations!
Congratulations on your accomplishment of one year of daily post! It must feel so great. I am so happy you had a great time and I loved reading about allthe great stuff you wrote in all of your entries.
I am happy to celebrate this day as well as excited about the name change. Frick and Frack were fun and now I am very excited to see and read the stories of Full Speed and T. Puzzle.
I believe you completely when you say that our unhappiness can and does stem from ourselves vs our choices and circumstances. It is difficult to believe this sometimes but I do believe ultimately true. I am sorry that you went through struggles in your beginning years as a mother but I can tell just from all your post that you are a GREAT mother! SO all you are doing…KEEP IT UP! I am happy that through this process you feel that you were able to take away so much and have realizations that made you happy.
Enjoy ever day of your next year and I too look forward to the stories of writesforall mommies!