Yes, kindergarten is great. In fact it is fantastic.
Then why do I feel so miserable?
Full Speed has said, and granted we are only on week two, that he ‘loves kindergarten’.
“Do you miss me when you are at school?” I ask him pointedly.
“Nope,” is his concise and honest reply.
There is a tiny part of my fragile mommy-ego that is actually able to rejoice that ‘school is cool’ for Full Speed. I can’t imagine how difficult it would be to send him if he was unhappy about it.
What gets me the most (like a dagger through my heart) is when I roll down the window and shout, “Have a great day, Full Speed,” and then he cheerfully replies, “you, too Mom!” I can’t quite explain why I get so weepy about this. It’s something about his smooth confidence and the way he commands the sidewalk as he marches to the door. He looks so grown-up. My heart becomes filled with pride, sadness and a longing for yesteryear. From the outside all that is happening is kindergarten drop-off. From my inside view, it is the beginning of Full Speed officially breaking free of me.
Once I put the tissues away (be kind and at least allow for another week), I will embrace this new phase and support Full Speed however I can.
Whether he misses me during the day or not.
- Be a Better Parent Challenge – Day 18 – Get happy! (momblognetwork.com)
- Kid Konnection: Ready for School (bookingmama.blogspot.com)