The boys had their six month eye check-up and even though it ended up being fairly routine with a good dose of positive news thrown in, I was kind of a mess. As a parent if you have ever experienced a traumatic medical appointment for your child, it never really leaves you. When Full Speed was first diagnosed with vision issues over five years ago, the initial prognosis was bleak. Years of testing, surgeries and follow-up care have thankfully stabilized his vision and his future.
After all this time and all the hard work to get both boys to a place of good vision, I still can’t let go of that first, horrible assessment for Full Speed. The logical place of my brain says to focus on how amazing they are doing but sometimes fear takes over. I hold my breath every time either one of them does a read through of letters as their visual acuity is tested. My whole body tenses as their ophthalmologist peers into their dilated eyes evaluating their physical structure.
Realistically, I may never fully get over my fear. Life, parenting and health are too precarious for that. To counteract life’s uncertainty all I can do is give thanks for every kind of health-related appointment that is routine.
That’s all any of us can do.