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The Way of Dreams

I am finally sitting down to write this week’s post.  Not having it completed has messed dearly with my ‘Type A’ tendencies.  When I committed to writing a weekly post, I was all in.  Still am.

Yet, life keeps getting in my way.

Over the weekend I began a Mindfulness Certification Training.  The first two days consisted of 14 hours of instruction, demonstrations and exercises.  I then will be taking class twice a week in the evenings and will end with another full weekend.

The good news is, I absolutely love it.  That bad news is, I now understand why wives, mothers and women in general sometimes push their goals farther and farther off into the distance.

I am learning there is never the ‘right’ time, there is only now.

It’s okay to feel bad about not getting everything done in the way you want.  It’s not okay to pretend those feelings don’t exist.

I am choosing to make peace with wishing I could do it all and make it look easy.  Sometimes pursuing our dreams is inconvenient, but if you are pursuing the dream that is truly authentic to you, the joy it brings will carry you through.  And, you can still be a worry-wart, Type A Mama while doing so.

Dreams don’t judge.

Dreams are just happy you showed up (finally!).

Shortcomings, messy house and all.

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Winning to Me

Full Speed had a respectable seventh place finish out of thirty-seven at his school’s bee.  The difference between him participating as a fifth grader and now is unbelievable.  He used to be the smallest, now he is among the tallest.  His voice, the depth of which I found unsettling, held steady as he spouted off each letter.

I no longer saw a boy on that stage.  In his place stood a confident young man.

Leading up to the competition, T.Puzzle and I continued a lively debate.  He believes a person is awesome only if they are winning.  I still hold that awesomeness is static.  Sometimes that expresses as external achievement, but mostly it is comprised of intangibles.  I do not fault T.Puzzle for his perspective.  Our culture exalts individual, external success.  Winning makes sense to him.  I get that.

Maybe Full Speed did not technically win the spelling bee, but from my view he demonstrated what it means to succeed.  He had the nerve to get up on that stage and compete with all eyes of the auditorium zeroed in on him.

I couldn’t do that.

I probably wouldn’t even be able to spell my name right in that situation.

When it was all said and done, he bounced back quickly.  He did not entertain the notion that misspelling a word defines him a person.

That feels like winning to me.

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How Do You Spell Unforgettable?

This afternoon Full Speed will participate in his school-wide spelling bee.  He beat out over 140 students to earn this spot.  I asked him if he remembered the speech I gave him before his spelling bee when he was in fifth grade.

“Nope.”

I turned my attention towards T.Puzzle.  “I gave you the same speech before your fifth grade spelling bee.  Do you remember?”

“Nope.”

“Wow,” I said.  “I really am making such a lasting impact on both of you, aren’t I?”

“Well, we both did win,” Full Speed said.

“Good point.  Maybe I know what I am talking about after all.”

Here is that unforgettable(?) speech:

“I want you to remember that you are awesome.  The amount of awesome you have inside you is static.  That means it doesn’t change.  There is nothing you can or can’t do to change this fact.  At the beginning of the spelling bee you will be awesome.  At the end of the spelling bee you will be awesome.  And during the middle, you will still be equally awesome.  Winning or losing can’t change your awesome-ness.  If you wonder how I know this it’s because when you were a baby and I held you in my arms for the very first time I loved you instantly.  I kind of already loved you before I even knew you.  Why?  It wasn’t because I thought to myself, ‘someday this kid is going to be great at spelling.’  No, it was because you were awesome.  You were then, you are now and you always will be.”

You can read the entire, memorable(?) post here:

The Story of a girl and Her First Little Buckeye

Stay tuned to learn Full Speed’s spelling fate.

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When Left to Their Own Devices (Part Two)

Over break Mad Dog had a big stretch of time home.

It was awesome.

I took advantage of this by scheduling some doctor’s appointments and procedures that normally get pushed from our priority list.  After one such minor procedure (no, it wasn’t Botox, I’m not a Real Housewife of Dallas yet), I was required to rest for the weekend.

That’s when it happened.

I was laying in bed when I heard the doorbell.  I could deduce it was Amazon, which let’s face it, is about 90% of our deliveries so the odds were in my favor.  It all seemed normal until the delivery kept on going and going and going….

When I heard Mad Dog shout for Full Speed to come help, I was even more confused.

Mad Dog was clearly worried about me and ordered ten bottles of fancy water to aid in my recovery.  Instead of ten bottles, he mistakenly ordered TEN CASES!

Thirsty much?

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New Year, New You

First of all, don’t go changing on account of the New Year.  You are much too fabulous for that.

Stay you, stay true.

In the midst of our holiday break, which is whizzing by, the boys got new glasses.  This may seem insignificant but it isn’t.  Due to their unique and complex prescriptions, we have sometimes waited up to a year (a year!) to get new glasses made.

These new frames arrived less than a month after we dropped off the prescription. That has never happened in all of our days of taking boys to eye doctors.

Not once.

Keep in mind T.Puzzle started glasses when he was six months old and Full Speed at twenty months:

It’s been a long haul.

The one thing that has remained constant is how incredibly handsome my guys are in their glasses.  I didn’t think they could improve on this, but they did.

I am choosing not to comment on how much older they look in these new frames.

Is denial a viable resolution for the New Year?

If so, I am already crushing it.

Take that 2019!

Here are the before and afters:

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Check out Full Speed’s take on the College Football Playoffs:

Championship Chatter