children, loss of parent, mommyhood, self-discovery

Sad Smile

December has not been the easiest month to get through without my Mom. I admit that when my sister was here I began to see glimpses of a newly constructed future without my Mom at its foundation. There is much happiness to be had. I also realized that by seeing the joy in my life doesn’t mean that I have forgotten my Mom, but that she is living on happily through me. However, as I have gotten deeper into the heart of this Christmas month, I am missing her more than ever.

Even though I am sad it helps to have my boys around. They are so enthusiastic about Christmas and all its wonder that I can’t help but smile.

Even a sad smile counts I suppose.