When writing my posts I try to be honest. My resolution for the coming year is to keep the honesty going. Motherhood has not always been easy for me and I want to continue the truthful documentation of my triumphs and tribulations.
I would like to start this off by first of all sharing how far I have come since the birth of Full Speed. In the seven years that I have been lucky enough to call this kid and his little brother my own, I feel like a completely new person. I learned it was easier to accept the harsh realities of raising two extremely spirited boys than continue to fight it. The more I let go of my parenting expectations (like having a quiet house, having children who exhibit minimal tantrums and/or power struggles, receiving gentle hugs, etc.) and embraced my kids for exactly who they are, everything started to get easier. You can sense this evolution if you have been following my blog for a while. The more recent my posts, the less pitiful they are. 2011 has especially been a turning point for me. My boys are older and I am hopefully wiser (ha, ha). I am now finally able to reconnect with parts of myself that I thought motherhood had taken forever. My boys are more independent (sigh) and this has allowed me the freedom to return to myself a little bit more every day.
How do I know that I still have a long way to go? Well, this is where the honesty part comes in play. Every time I hear that a friend or family member is expecting a child, especially their first, a tiny part of me hopes that at some point their future bundle of joy will throw some serious, Grade A tantrums. There, I said it.
I have yet to meet another Mom who has dealt/deals with as many tantrums as I have survived. If you are out there, hang in there. It gets better and so do the deals at the liquor store if you buy in bulk.
Anyway, I raise a glass (or two or twenty) to my best year of my motherhood experience yet. Thank you 2011!
Can’t wait for 2012… Happy New Year to All!